Down the Rabbit Hole - Holly Madison

Down the Rabbit Hole

By Holly Madison

  • Release Date: 2015-06-23
  • Genre: Biographies & Memoirs
Score: 4.5
From 3,443 Ratings


The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key—from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef’s former #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door

A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice’s journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four years—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.

With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.

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  • BUY!!!!

    By MIgirl89
    I can’t believe I’m at the end and finished. I may re-read just to relive the adventure. I could see everything as I read. I laughed, maybe shed some tears, I felt for Holly and wished I could have been there as a shoulder to cry on. I know how she must have felt. And the Girls Next Door was popular because of the girls in it! Not Hef. It was never his. I wish all the best to Holly and her family. You Cinderella, have found your happiness. I hope more happiness comes your way. And I hope you see this review. This book is worth buying and was worth the wait for me to buy. I’m sad i finished reading it! Now for Vegas Diaries!!!(also by Holly Madison)
  • Awesome book!

    By Teamteamah
    I could not put my phone down for days. I absolutely love this book!
  • Surprisingly Good

    By Munchkiiin
    I enjoyed this book.
  • Interesting read but kind of all over the place

    By lillies98
    Book kept me intrigued but I felt she jumped around a lot. The excessive use of exclamation points got a little annoying. She talks about how she was bullied by these women but also puts them down in her own way. Her struggles and accomplishments are empowering, however.
  • Self centered gold digger

    By flyhigh49
    Although the book did hold my interest it is obviously this woman is just trying to repair her image. Obviously she can't keep friends and her passive aggressive comments about everyone in the book only confirmed that for me. But, I have to give her credit.....she got what she wanted. Really would of had more respect for her if she had just been honest and said "yeah, I slept with this old man for fame and fortune.
  • Great book!

    By Ajhull1123
    Absolutely loved this book. It felt as though I was right there during the stories she tells. Very inspirational.
  • Girls next door

    By Samax0x0
    I remember watching the GND when I was a lot younger, it was one of my favorite shows. After reading this book I watched GND episodes I haven't seen in years, I picked up on things that Holly pointed out in her book. I really didn't think I would enjoy the book as much as I did but I thought it was great. I couldn't put it down, I finished it within about two days.
  • Love love love

    By Amandalcook1
    Love this book! Holly is so real and open. She's so inspiring. Love her
  • So many times where I couldn't put it down

    By Maxithecat
    A fun insight into the life of a former playboy bunny. It's not what I expected, enjoyed this book and I couldn't put it down.
  • Mis-Spelling 👎

    By BELIEBERswagswagswag12
    This was an okay book I suppose. I was thinking it would be juicer but it was kind of dull. I even found misspellings. "A week letter I received a letter from Hef reprimanding...." It shows page 904 of my iBooks, not sure where it would be in the actual book. But learn how to spell Holly!! 😳